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So, yesterday was Pentecost Sunday. The sermon was on the Holy Spirit. One of the purposes (benefits) of the Spirit is to guide us. You see, there is this battle and many of us, when we are being completely honest, do not want to be led at all.

One point in the sermon that stood out to me was in regard to some of the old adages such as: "Just follow your heart", "Let your conscience be your guide", and "It can't be wrong if it feels so right". If we truly listened to those sayings, they could prove deadly {There is a way that appears to be right, but in the end it leads to death. Proverbs 16:25}. And, I don't always trust my heart {For our of the heart come evil thoughts - murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false testimony, slander. Matthew 15:19}.

And that is why we need to heed the Spirit and die to the flesh constantly {daily, hourly, each minute, every breath}. The flesh is an insidious master and it is far too ambitious not to get it…


I have been here before. I stop, because I dare not repeat it {aren't we supposed to learn from our past?}. We remember, lest we forget. I desperately want my response to be different.I tell the voice that plays the broken record of discouraging scenarios to be silent. I'd shout it all mute if I could. And, it is better. This unknown hasn't undone me. I won't fret. Blessed be the name of the Lord....Still I will say, blessed be your name...You give and take away. And hasn't He given me everything? Every good gift given from Him. He is faithful. Whatever happens, wherever I end up next year, it is in His hands. And I beg weak flesh to trust and remember all of the trusting of the past - All the ways He has proven himself {not that I even deserve that kind of proof}- because He loves me. Completely. Irrevocably.

And I give Him my heartstrings because He has always carried them anyway, and this feeble heart of mine. I believe, I believe, please help my unbelief. Beca…

Roads Part 2

Okay, so the more complicated part always has to do with the relationships. Looking through my Bible tonight, I found many verses on the topic of friendship from the importance of friendship (iron sharpens iron, a friend to pick you up when you fall, and to receive wise council from) to warnings about imprudent friendships (don't make friends with an angry man lest you follow his ways) and everything in between. 

I view relationships as a gift. It would be harder to walk through this journey without friendship, especially the dark, shadowy valley places. Yet, these too are always changing. And it is hard. I have lived enough years to see it. People move, people change jobs, change churches - people just change. People you would never fathom being without slowly drift away until they are just a friend on Facebook whom you wish a happy birthday to, or possibly comment on big life events. There wasn't a falling out, and you remember your friendship fondly, but they aren't a pa…


"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6

Robert Frost's well-known poem "The Road Not Taken" begins "Two roads diverged in a yellow wood..." And I often feel that I am there, standing, and trying to discern which path to follow. Sometimes I know where I need to go; I am surefooted and confident. Other times I am indecisive. I stumble down my best guess and lean on God's promise that says He will guide me always. And as I ponder this, I am taken aback {here's the part where I feebly attempt to put into words what is in my heart}.

God is always with me. My journey isn't a surprise to him. I've wandered down roads that I shouldn't have, yet God doesn't abandon me. He knows all the roads, since He goes before me. He will use them, anyway.

Last week, I told a friend that sometimes we have to walk to the end o…