Skip to main content


Showing posts from December, 2011

Something New Already...

2011 isn't ending the way in which I would choose. No parties, no friends, no frivolity. But, that really encapsulates some of the hard things of this year, so maybe it is only appropriate that this is the way in which the New Year is ushered in: with feeble quietness from the sick (in body and heart-weary).

I've had some time to reflect on this past year. And, there were many indescribable heartaches, but I can also say without a doubt, that there were many victories. And moreover, in it all, in the midst of the atrocious mire, was Jehovah-Nissi (The Lord is My Banner). And there isn't victory without struggle. But, as I look to step from 2011 to 2012, I recognize my place. I can do nothing on my own accord, in my own power.

And then, staring back at me from a Christmas Starbucks disposable cup that housed hot tea three days prior: When we're together I know I'll never fall. And there is truth in that. Just as Peter floated above the waves when he focused on Jesu…

Making room...

Tonight I sat on my couch, sipped hot cider from my favorite owl mug until it turned cold, and listened to Christmas hymns. And I listened to the words. I really listened, then I pleaded for them to abide in my heart, the truth of it all. The holy.
How many times have I sung of the Advent? Of God's ransom and every heart preparing him room only to inadequately prepare my own? Countless nights have past since a star shone high proclaiming with the angels that the Christ-child was born. And what of this Grace born for us and this season?
I think it is easy to get lost in it all. Honestly, whatever family traditions we hold onto, whatever church traditions we covet, whatever we choose to focus on will never replace or augment the miracle. With or without shiny decorations, with or without 50 different varieties of cookies, with or without a tree, with or without presents, with or without fellowship, with or without acknowledgement, Jesus still came. Please don't misinterpret my …

Weekend Ponderings

“There is nothing I would not do for those who are really my friends. I have no notion of loving people by halves, it is not my nature.” ~Jane Austen

For those of you who know me, you know that I adore Jane Austen, I am sentimental to a fault, and I love people (even those who aren't so lovable). So, the above quote seemed apropos tonight.

It has been a very abnormal weekend for me. I haven't been feeling well, therefore, I didn't leave the house, Glenn was mostly gone, Jaden spent the night at a friend's house, and Gav was doing his own thing. It was quiet, which is sometimes welcome. But, this felt too quiet. Lonely.

I have a tendency to ponder things at length and become pensive. Don't get me wrong, I think taking time away from our busy schedules is a good thing. Sabbath rest and time for reflection is restorative in light of the hectic lives we lead; It is also completely necessary. But, this weekend I was grumpy. This weekend, I felt alone, disconnected.

I …