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Love {without expectations}

I have been praying lately for the capacity to love. Just love. To love freely without expectation. To love like Jesus. To love others more than myself because it's the slightest expectation that can cause so much disappointment. Expectations are like toxic parts of our flesh vying to be fed, to be acknowledged.

I wanted today to be different. I didn't want to be disappointed. I prayed specifically that I could be content, even if my family didn't honor me on this day meant to celebrate mothers. So, even when I found out that my husband had sent texts to our boys days ago to ask them what they wanted to do for me, and nether of them responded, I was thankful that the waves of disappointment didn't come. Those waves have overwhelmed me in the past.

I got up early and put on make-up and a pretty dress. I drove to Trader Joe's for flowers. It had been a few months since I had visited Bernice, who never married or had a family of her own, and the other ladies who live…