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Where I'm Left

I was sweeping yesterday and as I emptied a dustpan full of debris into the trashcan, I just had this overwhelming thought. Like, if I could take all of my mistakes, every misstep, put all the sordid details down on paper, then crumple that paper up and throw it away, I would.

In that moment, I was so overcome with regrets and feelings of hurt and failure. There are going to be those moments, I think, where we just want to crumple all of it up and say to hell with it. And I think that is perfectly fine. At least it's perfectly honest.

And as long as I am being perfectly honest with myself, I also know that there is nothing I can do to change the past. It is what it is. I do not want to go back and relive the things I cannot change over and over again in my head. I've done that too often and it just robs your heart of peace and your life of precious time.

So where does that leave me? It leaves me with the here and now and the choices that are in the present. It leaves me with a…